The last few weeks have been a challenge for me. My two middle children have been home all summer but now that has ended it is time for them to move forward.
Last Friday the older of my girls began university for the first time. There was all the usual buying and packing and last minute finishing up of projects before she left.
Now a week has almost passed, she is happy and settled. I am happy but not so settled. I feel the transition incredibly strongly.
Today 21 returned to his university for his final year.
My daughter’s leaving felt laden with significance. She is the final one of our children to set off on this adventure. Her younger sister’s future will take a different route. Today’s parting is much the same. As the final one to leave this year my son has moved our household into what feels like a vision of our permanent future; my husband, youngest daughter and I going through our lives together.
I will have to relearn cooking for three, not four or five or six.
Our future is here. It’s shocking. Unsettling. As if a great big parcel is lade in front of us that says, “this is it.”
Of course in reality there will be changes. Our youngest is still at school, there may be college options available to her. This year will highlight her options to us.
Today however, as a cottage pie bakes in the oven and 15, Rosie and I enjoy each other’s company waiting for my husband to return from dropping off 21 it all seems very strange.
I hope your day brings you some time to reflect and be peaceful in the middle of your busyness.
Lynn x
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