We have arrived at the penultimate Friday of the school summer holidays here in Wales. One more full week plus the Monday at home and then my youngest will be going back to school.
I wonder what this year holds for her. I anticipate lots of talk of transition and change and what comes next. This year is school Year 10, the year she would have been taking her first set of exams. The certificates my daughter will bring home this year will be rather different but will be equally momentous. They will mark and acknowledge her capabilities. I won’t deny I feel sadness that these capabilities are different to those of my other children. For her sake I wish she could have an independent life, however that is not to be.
Our task for the coming years is to balance helping her continue to achieve, acknowledge her steps, no matter how small they may seem to others and make sure that she has the right people and services around her to be fulfilled. For some of that it will be us, for some things it will be school or other providers.
Today as I sit in this afternoon I feel both the endlessness of the repetition of our lives and the flux of changing seasons. Not the least of these the rapidly approaching moving on of my older children.
In this moment 15 is occupied with her own pursuits and Rosie lies quietly at my feet. It is not at all unpleasant. I make the conscious effort to draw back from worrying over what is to come to appreciating what is now.
I hope today whatever is facing you that you can also find your way back to the present and enjoy those quiet moments in the middle of your life’s busyness.
Lynn x
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